Welp... Health is still at a steady decline. I'm resilient, so o know i must grind. A few good habits and consistency are starting to form. Just have to wipe the many remaining bad ones.
That said. I want some results now, and where else to start at but mental disappointments? Hey at least these things I can fix immediately.
To be frank, I'm disappointed with a few artists (which will include fallout on their group as a casualty) and a few people I know personally. Some of them it's their attitude, others their lack of work ethic. I used to be a pretty positive guy, thing is my sister swears I'm hyper sensitive to things and let it affect me when it shouldn't. Ehhhhh maybe she's on to something here.
Now. I'm too lazy to hold on to grudges, and stuff like this isn't even a grudge, but I feel like when you have someone around you that's negative, or unappealing, it starts to rub off on you, and that's no good. When you think about people you should start off with something good or memorable. And if it's constantly a negative, that's a problem.
So yeah. There's people I've associated with for years, as a fan, fellow artist, as well as on a personal level. The more I think about it, the more I figure it'll be wiser to just stop worrying or disappointing myself with these people, and just stop following or talking to them.
On an artist sense, it's disappointing because I ultimately enjoy their art. On the personal side, time is a limited resource we have. You're wasting my time, you gotta go.
So yeah. I don't have time for any extra negativity. I get paid to deal with it. Fuck outta here.